Life is speeding by faster than the proverbial bullet.. I know it’s all good.. I’m still breathing, upright, not duct taped to the floor and drizzled with fire ants. Though I fear there was a brief plan by the spirit guides to do so when I was my most grouchy…
I’ve had to add a possible snake meaning to my list… I’ve said I believe seeing one meant possibly pushing or resisting change, but what if there’s a third possibility?
My recent upheaval and consequent writing lapse started 2 weeks ago when I almost stepped on a snake while out walking.
Well, I need to be honest... I didn't actually almost step on it...
See…I was up by my mom's house (we live on opposite ends of the same 160 acre property.) Mom has new chickens and my dogs were thinking about killing them...
I was walking around a big juniper tree/bush to take Baby (the dog) over and show her to leave them alone.. Walking past a pile of dead leaves saw the yellow body and black diamonds and thought "Oh, someone killed a snake" then thought, "No one said anything about killing a snake" and let out an involuntary SHRIEK. The snake looked up... I ran away.... the snake rolled it's eyes.
As I vamoosed I did have the awareness that it was not the v-shaped head of a rattler but the sleek head of a bull snake... Good to know my brain could take in information even if it couldn't control my mouth.
I ran to mom’s door and started pounding for her to let me in… She laughed at me and said she was on her way to feed the chickens so I went back making her go first…. I could run for help faster if she got bit…That’s my story and I’m stickin’ to it…
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| "Stupid human, be quiet, you're scaring away my breakfast." There it was! The eye roll again!!! Did you see it? |
Anyway, mom told me that she’d heard that some Native American tribes believed that seeing snakes was a GOOD omen. That since they shed their skins it was a sign of “new beginnings.”…
At the time I was sure that she was just saying this so she wouldn’t have to load up her foster babies and drive me home because I was too freaked out to walk.
After the events of the past weeks I think she might have hit on something… New beginnings…. They aren’t always pleasant, but then again they aren’t always painful either…
I’ve learned a lot the past 2 weeks. I’m having to make some really hard changes. I’ve laughed a lot, thanks to a stranger. And are you ready for the best part?
I am officially, honestly and COMPLETELY over The Him… He will now officially be referred to as “the golf pro.” Something I “borrowed” from the new woman in his life… She’s always calling him “her golf pro” I think it’s a good description… Definitely all of one he warrants from me. He’s tried to come back into my space by picking fights via text, and then asking me to talk to him… I’ve refused… stayed silent… I honestly don’t give a crap about him and I didn’t think I’d ever see this day!!!! It feels good.
I have cowboys to thank for that…. Mmmm…. I’ve been reminded that cowboys are my blood type, where I come from. That is why they can heal me so easily. I’m thankful to the Universe for sprinkling my path with them just when I need it. One of them even sends me what I call “Cowgirl Porn” cause it takes my breath away…
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| Cowgirl porn... Isn't he beautiful? |
I’m learning how to “change the channel” like my soul sister Gina says to do… It’s not easy, but it works. I’m gonna tell you what I’ve learned about all that… I’m taking notes, but my life is got me by the tail and is pinching it for time.
I have to move to a another state. A place I never thought I’d live in again. I’m leaving my house that I loved. I am scared, but I am hopeful. I am trying to keep my faith up. I cry daily, but I’m putting one foot in front of the other and keeping my thoughts on where I want to be not where I am…Changing the channel.
Thank you for reading this. Thank you for caring enough to take time out of your life to check in on me here…I appreciate it. I heal from it.
If I cross your mind send me strength and courage. I’ll write again soon. I know I’m being watched over and guided… so are you. Even when we don’t see it, feel it, believe it.. Believe it anyway. It’s true.
When we banish doubt abundance flourishes and anything is possible. – Wayne Dyer
The thing is we cannot "banish" anything in our minds, we are not strong enough - think Superman and Kryptonite. We CAN however, CHANGE our minds.. change the channel..and by doing so change our life.... more to come about this.
Angels on your bodies.
Prairie Girl
I love Wayne Dyers Quote... I seem to walk thru the house banishing the doubt on a minute by minute basis. I can hardly wait until the abundance finally begins to flow! I think I'm due.Deserved, earned... one of those words. Gods speed in your search for the same my friend. Remember, dont let the videos replay. TOXIC. LYG, Gina
ReplyDeleteGreat quote! My cousin quotes him on her FB page all the time, they're great! Very uplifting and positive. Something we all need.
ReplyDeleteI've been wondering how your doing, thanks for the update =) So sorry your having to move. That can't be easy, but I know good things are in store and you will be where you are meant to be for healing and new beginnings. Hugs to you, you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
As of this posting, I haven't talked to you yet. I sit here staring at the comment section and wonder what to say. My first thought is that I'm losing one of the dearest people I've ever known and second is that "Darn, you're going to have a long drive back from "where ever" to come pick me up for the MQS shows"! lol
ReplyDeleteI won't be hollering or fussing but tears will be shed. After some of the things you've posted before, I've been expecting something like this. You being quiet so long proves it! lol
Sometimes a person is forced to make decisions that don't suit everyone but are needed to survive. Having been there, I understand your decision and pray for a wonderful outcome. With communication lines they way there are now, I know that we won't be losing you. We'll just have to wait a few seconds longer to be in touch.
The third thing I thought was "WTF!! Are you crazy? You can't leave me and all your friends! You're going to move to Tornado Alley and I'll never see you again because I'll never go out there!" lol
You are my Angel that God sent to me when I needed you most. I pray that yours lead you to your healing place. Love Ya
Thank you Janet...
ReplyDeleteBarb that made me bawl like a baby... You are very precious to me. You have blessed me over and over.
While I might not get to ride w/you to MQS, I'll definitely still be your roomie and partner in crime while we're there.
And why won't you come to tornado alley? You gotta go through there to get to Louisiana!!!!
I love and appreciate you more than you can know. I hope I get to the healing place soon... I know I'm making great progress, but it's often two steps forward and one step back...Are we there yet already?
Angels on your bodies.