“Life is just a leap of faith. Close your eyes, hold your breath, and always trust your cape!”
It is very fitting of my life at the moment.
Visualize if you will (kind of like in an old Roadrunner cartoon) me falling from a height so great that, even while I write this and you visualize it.. and paint dries… I’m still falling… waiting for the solid ground to appear.. I am trusting my cape..
What’s most incongruous about the whole situation is the fact that everyone who sees me plummeting (hears about my situation) just smiles and gives me the “thumbs up” as I go by… Kinda like they’re saying “good jump!”…. hmmmm …
Meanwhile.. with the wind blowing my hair straight up… I submit.. What else is there? What’s that they say?… “resistance is futile” … Yeah.. that about sums it up…
So… I trust my cape… The cape of all that’s come before me.. every step into thin air that turned to solid ground.. The open trailer who’s load didn’t shift an inch the whole 470 miles from this driveway to Sally’s…and had a flat tire AFTER I arrived…
The opportunity that my house here will offer my mother… the heartbreak that saved me from being used and betrayed further by the Golf Pro… The awakening from 12 years of a bad marriage…
Speaking of my marriage… while I was packing I found a letter I’d written to The Ex 11 years ago (2 years into the marriage) telling him I was leaving him because I wasn’t going to keep putting up with the way he treated me… talk about an eye opener… I don’t know what happened that made me stay, but I am very thankful I stuck around long enough for my Sprit Guides to come to me… Now, I have proof… no one can ever say I bailed at the first sign of trouble… I stuck it out until I almost ate myself into a piano case as a coffin….
I’m trusting my cape… What makes up my cape? It’s my raising.. my family… my beliefs… my faith.. my hope even when things feel the most hopeless…The smiles and reassurances of those watching me leap…How can they have more faith in me than I do? The hands that reach out to me with everything I need, at the exact moment I need it… You… the precious souls that take these notes off of tumbleweeds and send me love and courage back.. My cape…
Did I tell you the house I planned to move into has no time frame whatsoever now as to when it will be cleared out?
Hmmm… wonder what will show up instead?
At this moment, I’m hopeful. Makes me wanna say “what ever it is I bet it’ll be good,” but catch me in a few hours and I may be in tears… If I am just smile, and wave….then holler “good jump!”
Angels on your bodies..
Prairie Girl
Ps.. I got another discouraging word after I wrote this but the wind roaring past my ears made it hard to let it get me down... Guess there is something to be said for moving fast... I'll keep you posted...
